August 1st 2014

I officially hate my scale. It WAS a misread. I know because in the course of the next few days it would be anywhere between 176 and 171 depending on how I stepped on it. I wanted to throw it across the room for toying with my emotions like that. Making me feel like I was making progress faster than I really was. Demonic thing. Well thank goodness it is the first of the month and anything is possible when there is a fresh race to run. 30 days to see what I can accomplish. I have been practicing portion control some more and I have begun to realize that I often eat thinking that I haven't eaten in a long time or wont eat for a long time. When I and calm and remind myself that food will be available again soon it is easier to manage eating just a little less than the amount that would make me satisfied. Usually I feel better for it anyways. So lets see how far I can go. 165 this month? I got this.

June 17, 2014

My scale said I am 171 today. I hope it isn't a misread because I have been getting some compliments about how much thinner my face looks. It also means tha despite the Anniversaries fun I had last weekend, I am still on track. Ten pounds this month? Starting to look possible! Yes please!

June 10, 2014

Yesterday was my 2 year anniversary and I am currently 173lbs. I love how I never meet my goal for the month, but I still end up making a little progress. I think that is't such a bad thing considering the fact that I have now lost 24 lbs and I have eight more to. Go before I can say that I am as fit as I was before I got pregnant. To be quite honest I think I am even more fit though. Lately my husband has been working on Saturdays and I have had that extra day to be able workout. This week I worked out 5 of the 7 days and I am feeling stronger and stronger. I am so excited to be 165 and I am going to keep fighting to reach that ultimate goal of 140. Someday that will be me

May 8, 2014

I am now at 175. And I am only a week into this month. The end is in sight. Five more pounds for the month and then five pounds next month to get me back to pre baby weight. I had to stop working out for a while for health reasons but I am back. I am also learning again how important it is to recognize dinner as a time to eat only enough to feel satisfied. That means eating slow and mostly eating veggies. Dinners are what will make it or brake it for me. I also had a really bad sugar week a little while back so it is also a good time to remember that sugar has its place and if I have any it should be just enough to enjoy it. The other day I had a spoonful of ice cream and was happy to say that was all I needed to feel like I had dessert. It was great. I am still working on this. Stay with me people !

New goal!

Ladies and gentleman I want to get to 140. That means I need to lose 40 lbs. As you have seen I have already lost 17 which will be a grand total of about 60 lbs lost. I realize I might get pregnant in the middle of all this because that was the point of my birthday goal but here's the thing. As excited as I am for another baby...I am not pregnant yet. So let's see how far I can go. Let's start with one month. I have always wanted to lose 10 lbs in a month. Let's see if I can do it!!!

March 27 2014

My goal date has passed and I am still at 179. I am going to be honest I was soo depressed this month because I felt like all the work I have been doing has bee going to waste and if I had actually recorded the things I was doing I would have seen a pattern. I am proud to have lost as much weight as I did though. Here's the thing. Let's get real. I am actually relieved that my goal date is over because that means I can start a new one. I have been thinking to myself...how have people managed to make such enormous transformations in 12 weeks or a yet ear when the most I could do this year was seventeen pounds. How did I lose 50 one year? What was I doing different. Because right now I am practically obsessed with losing weight. In fact I think that's part of the problem. I get so frustrated with is that I skip the workouts that would have made a difference. So I think the new key here is to desires and be happy. I am going to see what happens by just eating a little smarter and some basic exercise habits and just focusing on being happy. I think it would cure emotional eating and encourage me to work harder than if I just pushed myself to the limit. I also have an announcement to make. I am not done here!!!!

February 24th 2014

I had a month of little results this Valentine season. Guess why? Cuz one day of candytuft turned into a whole week. I also had a lot of fattening romantic dinners so I took a hit and I finally got back to 179. I honestly don't know how realistic 165 will be in exactly one month but I haven't given up. I just finished my workout and I am feeling pumped that I am losing weight despite everything. I think a key ingredient to all of this is to believe and reward myself for. Progress instead of feeling likel a failure for being hungry or eating something delicious or not working out. I am strong and I am losing weight. If I even get close to my target weight it will be incredible. So I am still here. Fighting. Ps I have so many ideas for after I have my next baby. Next time this is going to be so much faster, just because I know what to expect now.