Just putting this out there

I have a big drive to accomplish something for myself and my family. I want to be able to help support my family financially with one of those inborn easy talents that some people somehow pull out of their hats. I want to find that talent, that easy thing that I have too much of that gives people the money toward a house and a family and school just for the fun of going to school without my darling husband having to carry all the weight. Somehow I want that and I feel like step one is achieving my health goals so that I would suddenly have ll that time to find it and do it, but now I realize that good health will always cost me that time and that as soon as I let that go there will be no success. Not financially, health wise or personally. So what do I do? I invite you to tell me what to do because I won't stop praying and I won't stop working but sometimes people need more than their own thoughts. I could use some advice. Tell me how I can be a decent working stay at home mom and I will make up the fitness part somehow. Is it possible? Is someone out there doing it? Got anything? Please.

January 3, 2015

Happy New Year! And you know what that means, new goals, which In my case means a few more mini-goals. I want to do a no sugar month for realsies this time. This is tough because today my husband ate four brownies, two cookies, and a handful of chocolate pretzels. He agrees to support me in this goal but we will see how well he can be a hand slapper. We'll I am giving it a try and today is day one accomplished. I was also able to have a no regret day of eating healthy! Yay! I think that's a tough one to achieve when you  are a hormonal pregnant girl with a growing appetite. So day one accomplished! My husband did go out and buy smaller bowls to help us regulate portion sizes better. I think I will wait till the baby is born to regulate much smaller besides using is to measure pasta and rice servings. Carbs are a toughie. Update! I have gained 3 lbs thus far and I am hoping to only gain 5 more to be 180. I also have a small plan worked out for after the baby is born.
Using portion bowls and doing mild weights for month one. Walking and weights month  two and 3. 30 day shred level1 month  four with all three level in the preceding months. I don't know if an hour daily will be plausible for me anymore after this baby but if I could even do it once a week that would be awesome. Oh and I need to stretch more. I forget all the time how good it feels. That's a rough plan for you folks! And my first battle is against sugar. One down you siren of sweetness! Day one....

November 24, 2014

I am now second trimester and Thanksgiving is just around the corner. I don't know if I mentioned this earlier but we have moved in with my mother in law for a couple of months so that my husband could finish off his schooling in one semester without working. During this time I have discovered have found a new love for the bathroom scale they have here. Apparently I am 169 and I haven't gained any weight yet. My mother in law says she is pretty sure it's accurate but I know I have had a few too many nights recently when I have over eaten. So this scale must surely be sweet talking me cuz I'm liking this lie a lot. If I can continue at this rate I should have not trouble at all being 185 at most on delivery day.ni have been working out off and on still. I always workout on Mondays and one other day of the week. Things have gotten busy lately with my Substitute Teaching job so I am trying to double that. My tummy is finally feeling like there is a little baby in there too, which is nice because I have always felt like I take forever to start showing. Now to talk about the holidays...everyone gains like...5 lbs this season and I am trying to be careful

Thanksgiving I will skip potatoes and go for the light meat turkey vegetables and whole wheat bread. Absolutely noon second helpings. One plate only. And remind me to drink water. I always forget.
My two must haves are sweet potatoe pie and pumpkin pie soo I will just have to be content with one small serving each. That sounds like a lot but perspectivly these things will be left overs all week after and I will not be eating them then so this is my one indulgence. I think that's fair. We will talk about Christmas later. That's a whole other temptation. Wish me luck.

September 8, 2014

I am at 171 and I worked really hard last month. My arms are more tone than they have ever been in my life and my legs feel so solid. I thought for a while that  after all this time something must be wrong if I am not dropping major pounds right now, but I have discovered that not only am I gaining som really good muscle I am also PREGNANT! Yah. That would explain some stuff. So here's what has been going on. Last time I was pregnant I gained 30 lbs. I was working at a restaurant and I was a lot more apprehensive about working out first trimester. SO! New goals.

I am only going to weigh myself once a week so that I don't stress out
I am going to count my calories so I don't go crazy thinking pregnancy is binge time cuz it's not.
I am going to workout daily for at least 45 minutes and pay attention to my body.

If all goes well I only want to gain 15 lbs this time. That means I only want to be at 185 on delivery day. By the way I don't believe in starving myself with a baby and I will talk to a doctor the whole time about what I can and can't do. But I have already been told about very athletic women having a perfectly safe pregnancy and that has been my point from the beginning. Besides I am already overweight. This baby is going to already have a nice warm fatty place to develope.  I am just going to do all I can to make sure that's gone as soon as possible when I meet are second baby!

August 1st 2014

I officially hate my scale. It WAS a misread. I know because in the course of the next few days it would be anywhere between 176 and 171 depending on how I stepped on it. I wanted to throw it across the room for toying with my emotions like that. Making me feel like I was making progress faster than I really was. Demonic thing. Well thank goodness it is the first of the month and anything is possible when there is a fresh race to run. 30 days to see what I can accomplish. I have been practicing portion control some more and I have begun to realize that I often eat thinking that I haven't eaten in a long time or wont eat for a long time. When I and calm and remind myself that food will be available again soon it is easier to manage eating just a little less than the amount that would make me satisfied. Usually I feel better for it anyways. So lets see how far I can go. 165 this month? I got this.

June 17, 2014

My scale said I am 171 today. I hope it isn't a misread because I have been getting some compliments about how much thinner my face looks. It also means tha despite the Anniversaries fun I had last weekend, I am still on track. Ten pounds this month? Starting to look possible! Yes please!

June 10, 2014

Yesterday was my 2 year anniversary and I am currently 173lbs. I love how I never meet my goal for the month, but I still end up making a little progress. I think that is't such a bad thing considering the fact that I have now lost 24 lbs and I have eight more to. Go before I can say that I am as fit as I was before I got pregnant. To be quite honest I think I am even more fit though. Lately my husband has been working on Saturdays and I have had that extra day to be able workout. This week I worked out 5 of the 7 days and I am feeling stronger and stronger. I am so excited to be 165 and I am going to keep fighting to reach that ultimate goal of 140. Someday that will be me